Thursday, 14 January 2010

i honestly thought, waiting for a scan that day, that everything was going to be fine.

i was a touch concerned, but i thought...

i thought i would know if something was wrong. how could i not?

there was nothing that could have given it away. nothing to make me suspect that this wasn't going to end well.

and yet.

i still feel stupid.

and i still wish i could have kept my baby safe.

it doesn't matter if this was never meant to be. it doesn't matter that there is nothing i did wrong, that there was nothing i could have done.

i still believe. that i should have been able to prevent this.

3 comments:

Maddie said...

This is a very natural response. We all think we should have been able to keep our babies safe.

Hugs xx

CC Devine said...

Sending lots of love, CCx

B said...

thanks maddie and cc xx