i honestly thought, waiting for a scan that day, that everything was going to be fine.
i was a touch concerned, but i thought...
i thought i would know if something was wrong. how could i not?
there was nothing that could have given it away. nothing to make me suspect that this wasn't going to end well.
i still feel stupid.
and i still wish i could have kept my baby safe.
it doesn't matter if this was never meant to be. it doesn't matter that there is nothing i did wrong, that there was nothing i could have done.
i still believe. that i should have been able to prevent this.