i'm less heavy today.
i think it's at least partly because i took my counsellor's advice and have done precisely nothing today.
it's a relief, kinda. but i don't think this is over yet. not by a long chalk. there are still some dark days to come, but at least i can breathe a little easier today.
on glow, they talk about abiding. about just sitting with the person who has lost their child. i think... i haven't been sitting with myself and feeling my own pain.
i need to.