The music i would expect to bring me through a time like this hasn't been the music that has helped.
Tori Amos famously released her album From the Choirgirl Hotel after suffering a series of miscarriages. So I got out the album and started listening.
And yet somehow, it didn't do what I needed it to. Don't get me wrong, it occasionally made me cry. But mostly it was the songs I didn't expect. The ones I hadn't seen as connected to the miscarriage before. Cruel. Liquid Diamonds. iieee. Suddenly I got them. But Spark and Playboy Mommy - the songs most obviously connected - they weren't what I needed.
The first song to really make me sob was Florence and the Machine's cover of You Got the Love.
(Unfortunately, I was driving at the time. That could have ended badly.)
Since then, I've listened to the Florence and the Machine album a lot. And this song - Rabbit Heart (Raise it Up) really speaks to me. (If you haven't heard it before, please do click through and let me know what you think.) I don't believe it's actually written about miscarriage, but god. The words.
I have been listening to Tori too. Scarlet's Walk, for some reason. I've never really listened to that album before. But somehow it speaks to my loss.
I've been listening to PJ Harvey too, and rueing the fact that my copy of Stories from the City, Stories from the Sea is currently inaccessible.
Does anyone have anything or anyone else to suggest? I'm hungry for new music right now, particularly female singers. I do like Ani DiFranco, although I only have a couple of albums (Not a Pretty Girl and Puddle Dive) and I'm also thinking that I might dig out Bleed Like Me by Garbage.
(this was partly inspired by caz's post here. The post on glow in the woods that linked Lhasa de Sela also had a lot to do with it.)