i was 17 weeks pregnant when we found out what had happened. 8 weeks ago today.
(is that all?)
(is it that long?)
but. babies aren't conceived until two weeks after the official start of the pregnancy. and. it had died four weeks before we found out.
so my child only existed for 11 weeks.
and because even the best pregnancy test in the world will only tell you you're pregnant two weeks after conception, we only knew about it for nine of those weeks.
such a small space of time, to create such devastation. to break me like this.