i never realised before how exhausting grief is.
it's one of the reasons i'm scared of returning to work.
my house is in uproar (we are having some work done) and there are things everywhere. and in my grief and misery i haven't been keeping on top of any of the admin of our lives.
and i'm so tired.
i could sleep ten hours a night - normally eight is plenty - and still be tired.
i wonder if i will ever feel efficient again.
work was OK. i got a bit emotional when talking to two of the people there, but i was OK. and that's difficult to accept, but i think i'll be ok going back.
a couple of people told me i looked un-stressed.
if that's true, i wouldn't recommend a pregnancy loss as a method of de-stressing.