the last thing the midwife asked me to do was to put the books and the internet aside. to know that we have a plan in place, to look after me and D. to stop obsessing.
i'm not obsessing anywhere near as much as i was at first. but i am spending a lot of time on the internet.
one of my first instincts, when we found out what had happened, was to clear out the rubbish. to throw away everything we don't need or want or love.
i haven't done so yet. we're half way through improving this place. at the minute, the internal doors are being replaced and the paint is being stri.pped from the door frames. we're having to move all our things around to stop them being covered by dust and paint fragments.
but the guy who's doing it isn't back now until monday.
i want to take the opportunity to have a clear out before i start to go back to work. and i think i need to back away from the internet. just a bit.
when you get to the stage when you're on as much as i have been recently, it's time to have a bit of a break.
i have a few draft posts ready, though, and i think i might set them up to post over the weekend. not sure yet. we'll see.