Monday, 12 April 2010

impossible pie.

1 cup sugar
1/2 cup plain flour
1/4 teaspoon baking powder
pinch of salt
2 tablespoons melted butter
2 eggs
1 cup milk
1 cup coconut
1/2 teaspoon vanilla

you're supposed to melt the butter, and beat the eggs. mix the wet ingredients into the dry, followed by the vanilla extract and the coconut. but i just shoved it all into a bowl and mixed it together with a wooden spoon, and it came out perfect.

it seems impossible. that you can mix all that into a gloopy mess and it will come out as a pastry layer under an egg custard layer with coconut topping. as a tasty pie. but it works.


and right now, it seems impossible to me that our reproductive systems can do what they are supposed to. it seems impossible that i will ever get pregnant again.

but maybe i'm wrong.


biojen said...

I hope you are wrong, you deserve for it to be possible.

Catherine W said...

I'm intrigued. I can't imagine how that pie recipe works. I want to try it myself now!

It does seem impossible doesn't it?
But I'm hopeful for you B.

Maddie said...

I'm hopeful for you too. How many months were you going to try for before you went back about more tests? Hoping they're not needed and the next cycle is your one.

Maddie x

jezebeldeville said...

Mmm. Pie.

Seriously, that works? I'll have to try it sometime.

It'll happen, hon. Sending you good vibes. You do deserve good things in your life. And pie.


lis said...

that pie sounds impossible, you pregnant doesn't.

state of mind is a lot. start telling yourself (as crazy as it sounds) to prepare for a baby, to make a nice cushy lining for a new little bean. and with positive thoughts and lots of luck, maybe our next babies will be the take home kind.

thinking of you...

loria said...

I'm really always hoping for the best for you. Things may seem impossible now - but life has a way of making its way onwards, ever onwards and you are so, so loved. xx

lis said...

i hope you don't mind me sharing the link to your impossible pie. i hope you are feeling a bit more cheery. i've been thinking of you.


SpiralSkies said...

It's the seemingly impossible things that we always yearn for more, isn't it? I know the impossible can happen though. You just have to trust in it, as you do your recipe. And maybe have a little patience.


B said...

FUCK i hate when my comments disappear into the ether.

B said...

try again.

i hope you are all right and it happens. i really, really do.

you should all try the pie. but if you have fillings or dodgy teeth, you should leave out the coconut. the theory is that the heavy stuff sinks to form pastry, the coconut rises for the topping, and custard forms out of what's left, but i still don't really believe it's possible. even after making it twice.

i'm hopeful for you too catherine.

two cycles after this one maddie. if there's nothing by the end of june we'll be referred on. such a relief to know that.

lis, i tried to do that yesterday, and it was terrifying. my brain could only contemplate that for a few seconds before skittering away terrified. but i will keep trying to think positive. because positive thinking may or may not help, but negative thinking damned sure won't.

i miss you loria honey.

jen - i wish i was young enough to have patience :( but i don't have enough time left for that.

xxx to you all