Shit. I just read this. And David Cameron is now in charge.
Leaving aside anything else, if you move the limit for abor.tion to 20 weeks, and someone has a 20 week scan and discovers that their baby has a condition that means that it will never survive - does that mean that it's just tough, they will have to go through with their entire pregnancy - knowing that their child will never live - because whoops! we've passed the deadline! ah well, nevermind....
I feel sick.
It's one of the things that terrifies me, that I'll get pregnant and that this one sticks, but that something will turn out to be wrong at 20 weeks. And that we will have to term.inate the pregnancy, even though we want a child of our own more than anything in the universe.
And knowing that the man in charge wants to shorten the already-short amount of time I would have to make that decision?
.... Like I said, I feel sick.
I feel unable to talk at the minute.
I leave posts unread in google reader, because I want to comment, but I can't think of anything to say.
I read the comments people leave for me on this blog, and I appreciate them more than I can say. But I can't make myself reply.
I receive emails and messages on facebook. But I can't make myself write back.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Having said that - I haven't seen any of my friends (except for one) for what seems like a very long time.
I've just stayed home. and hidden from the world.
But today? I'm meeting a friend for lunch.
It's weird. I think the antidepressants are starting to work, and I'm feeling better. But I still don't really want to interact with people.
But hopefully after meeting vix today, I'll feel more inclined to talk again.
I hope so. I find it a bit scary, being so insular.
It's not like me at all.
edited to add that i'm also calling into work before i meet vix. i'm a bit scared.
i'm sure they'll all be ok - everyone has been amazingly supportive - but...
i'm still a bit scared.